The dreams of a sick Dog was a gift from God.

For nine years my journey with my dog  Moo has brought me many new friends and adventures.All journey's begin with the first steps into the unknown and discovery of the know.My companion Moo brought unconditional love and was there for me when my stresses of life faced me head on.I was tagged with the bi-polar disorder after my divorce in 1986.I know that it was brought on by depression and losing my identity of twenty years.I had many cats and cats are very different because of their independence by nature.But dogs need care in many areas of their dependence is their nature.Moo was very dependant on me and I became co/dependence on him.The responsibility took over my life and it was my main focus for nine years.I had a walking schedule and feeding time and even a bedtime routine with Moo.It was all centered on my dog and what was best for him.Of course, there were benefits for me too or I wouldn't have taken on this on my journey.Every person or living thing in our life adds or subtracts our energies.The balance is important to our well-being and progress of our spiritual growth. It is all the reflection of our inner thoughts and leads to our  processing of our coping with each problem in our emotions.Keeping and caring of Moo was in my life and his life was in my hands as a caretaker.We are all caretakers of this world because the love and compassion are in our image of God placed in our DNA.Life, love and caring of Moo were very deep in my souls as it was when I cared for my second husband who passed three years ago from diabetes.Moo was there with me to pet, cuddle and keep me balance in his unconditional love. Yesterday was a day now in my memory of a time of sadness and joy as I signed the papers the veterinarian to put Moo to sleep.The days leading up to that signing was filled with many thoughts of my own self and how would I feel emotional when Moon was not here for me.I knew I couldn't be selfish and I pray about my guilt thoughts and God told me to observe Moo as he slept during the day.It was a great thought gave me and I had never heard of it or thought about it.Moo would sleep while I did my radio show and wrote on the computer and I never watched him like I did in last moments in the physical.When he was awake his breathing was labored and would choke to the point of losing his breath.But, while asleep he would move his tiny paws very fast and make sounds like a healthy dog running and having fun.He had not been healthy for months leading up to his heart murmur. I was surprised that his dream state was so wonderful and calming his breathing.I didn't want to wake him for his walks or feeding times.When I woke him up he would start the coughing  and walking was hard for him.I put in the bathroom with the hot shower on and this help while he was in the room.but, as soon as he was there for a few minutes I would let him out and started again and the only peace he had been in his dream state and sleep was his only life without suffering.I ordered medicine for him to help his immune system these were in the form of doggy treats.Moo was 12 years old and he had a good life or should I say a dog's life.He would listen to meditation tapes every day with me as I did energy treatments on him for one hour every day.I prayed and laid hands on him and talk softly to him.God was helping Moo and it was in his peaceful dreams I observed.I finally realized it was his time to go to those spiritual dreams and find peace.All my grieving and sadness disappeared  because God had given me a gift of peace in Moo's dreams.