It seems we sabotage ourselves more then we think we do.I know a person who was handed an opportunity to co-host a radio show and work with someone who had 45 of experiences and get free sessions on the phone any time sometime in her life went wrong or upset her.She was always talking about her childhood and her worthiness and at some point by gaining her self esteem she was leveling off from the drama. The months past and improvement was happening in her writing and her relationships with her children.She started a web page and came in contact with two men that flirted with her and she flirted with them and the deceptions began to make her say things that were out of line on a talk show about love.She was told to think about what they said in post about fighting and arguing to prove compatibility in relationships. She didn't respond to the messages and research on this method of uses fighting to control a relationship.She didn't call the radio host she just talked to the two men and got there opinion on the situation. Why didn't she listen to the messages?She was just to busy or she wanted to sabotage the whole radio career? I talk to God about this and He said just pray and let her go. I have had so many people working with me over the years and this person really had the charm and the right things to help people.I guess I missed her unworthiness she was a codependent with her family and all of her relationships. I really thought she understood the perceptions of her whole brain thinking so I just kept encouraging her to keep going and everything would fall into place.She was not helping herself and we talked about her experiences and her lessons she said she had learn.She seem okay but did backside into her unworthiness. I was a sounding board and listen to her story many times and there was progress.I call her phone one last time to see if she wanted to talk about anything before I made my decision to take her off the show.She had her voice mail on like always but called me back when she had time.She didn't call me back so I waited for God to sent me a new co-host like I had done so many times before. Did she want to stop doing radio or was it the two men that talked to her about her life and advise her to stop working with me.I got a message from one of the men to not follow him anymore and told her that but she didn't respond. The other man messaged me and starting judging me and telling me I don't know how to love unconditional.Both of these men seems to be very logical and egotistical in there messages to me.So I un-friended both of them. I was beginning to think about her free will to choose to go down a new path.It really wasn't about me giving her unconditional love it was about my objections to the post about fighting and arguing. I gave her honor and respect for her work on the show and her writing on her web site.I didn't want her to leave my life but is was not my choice.Sometimes you have to allow people to leave your life.We would laugh together and share everything I thought it was friendship and work relationship.I know that many people like her messages and she got many comments on her web site.It has been days since she has been gone and I checked on her web site writings.She has "gone out of her mind" that was her last post.What happened? I could start talking about evil influences right now but I rather like to say that she is still under the influence of those two men.He post was so depressing and she may be headed for breakdown.I don't think this was God's plan.Maybe it was too fast to grab the fame or her unworthiness never went away. Sabotage was my only logical answer to this whole thing.The pressure from the outside can influence many people to take them off their path especially when they are as gifted as she was on the airwaves.Sometimes I think we all bit off more then we could chew that is why I talk with all my student and co-host before and after a show to make sure they are processing their journey. I don't feel any guilt I am just sad to read her post and watch her crash and burn.Things like this happen to everyone and I have seen it happened to many gifted people.They need to meditate and process everything it becomes a spiritual lifestyle.You can serve two masters and living in two worlds is the same thing you have to commit to something and stay with it.She was happy or so it seemed and excited about the radio show and then something happened went she started talking about one of the man opinions on the show I just let it go because she seem to need other people opinions for some reason.I could have said something the first time but I didn't. Her own self worth of her messages changed when she went back to co-dependency on these two men I think she knows this some where inside of her confusion in her mind.No names are used in this paper because that doesn't serve a purpose the reason I am writing this is to clear the air and get back to business of co-creating my own story. I have talk to God and He has forgiven any wrong doings that may have occurred without my knowledge or any of the things one the man accused me of even though I know what cause the whole thing sabotage by her or them.
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