SPARKING was the dating word because of this energy between two souls destiny to be together throughout eternity.As the phases of the relationship blossomed, the term courting became the catch phrase.There were moon lite night and swooning over the stars on lovers lane to increase the courtship romance.The pecking was the kissing and clothes were kept on with only her ankle showing for enticement. She was shy bashful and respected for her hidden charms of her virginity she protected.Her natural beauty was adored and her modest makeup was a light blush seen only in the candle light. She was demure and only spoke when her suitor gently touched her hand to guide her through a door into another room for further conversation. Women had grace and class and style that was present in their spiritual awareness of their own wisdom.They didn't need a coach to make them they were a lady the knew they were to be respected. Even the girls who were tomboys and hung around the boys in the neighbourhood playing tag and games of pretending to be mothers and fathers of to their dolls.I had a boyfriend that had a doll and his father built furniture out of orange crates for us to pretend with our dolls that we were a family.Many times I would play dress up and walk around in their mother's high heels and dance in front of the mirror and sing with my hair brush.
All souls entered into this world searching for an identity and the masculine and famine are definitely changing.I was told to ladylike and the tomboy was always urging me to run and play in the dirt with cars and roll around in the grass or down a hill on a piece of cardboard.I knew I was different in so many things and to choose to be girl or woman was just the mother part of me that wanted to be somebodies caretaker in the future.In school, I would gather all the children on the playground in a circle and start games that would bring everyone together. The joining of who we are and what feels good and we follow that emotional yearning of the heart.As the journey from childhood is the first of the quicken of spirit in our activities we choose to bring into reality. It is all about friends, fun and the joy of the freedom of the soul.The child in me still remains and my thoughts are childlike most of the time.As I grew into my teen years I had to make a choice to be a tomboy or a lady in my body that was given to me.My brain was always thinking more about begin a mother and that is where I went to discover my sexual relationships.The goal was to have a baby and fill the role of a wife and mother.Every boy I dated had very loving natures and wanted just to kiss or make out but when it came to the subject of children they had no interest in making a family. At age 14 I met a man who was 21 years old and he said the magic words "I want you to be the mother of my children" he was in the Army and left to go to Panama and we wrote each other letters.This was so perfect and as the years went by a letter came saying he was marrying a girl from Panama. I was heart broken for the first time.My goal was not to get involved unless the person wanted children but God had another plan for my life.Dating was the plan and learning how to love unconditional and allow God to guide me.The men came and went and the late night in the cars at the drive-ins were exciting and dangerous because I didn't do anything sexual with them so the dating thing was not my thing.I turn to religion and when to church and my spirit quicken every time I praise God in song and practices. I knew that I belonged to God. At age 11 I was called to be a prophet but I didn't take that serious. So my teen years really show me this was not the right life for me.At age 16 my dreams came true that I pray for many nights as I sat looking up at a star and wishing. I met Charlie and my world stopped as he came walking down the street in front of my apartment in the dark shadows towards me.I knew God had sent him.Yes,there was quickening in my spirit that night.Was this a soul mate connection that would last forever I asked God.And God told me in my heart it would be forever. My soul was complete when Charlie was around talking to me on the phone.I wanted his child more each day and we didn't use any protection.After 11 years still no children, the doctors told us the news we couldn't have children.So I pray and God told me to adopt a baby. I talk to Charlie and he didn't agree at first so I kept praying for his heart to change.This was a very hard time in our marriage.Charlie really loved all my attention and wasn't sure about bringing in a child between the two of us.The day his heart changed there was quickening in my soul.We became a family of a 5-month-old boy. The days flew by as Joshua our son grew into a 7-year-old home- schooled young man.Charlie helped me as much as could with all the lessons of life and spend time with him one on one many times.My memories are good and I have no regrets of raising a fine young man of very many gifts of God.Charlie and I both knew that the day would come to go on our own journey's we had many conversations about the children of this world. The children Charlie took care of are all men now thanks to God speaking to his heart.And I found a journey to help the children of God also.The two journey's have come back together after 30 years and God has renewed the quickening of our souls in the relationship between Charlie and me.We are talking about our past memories and this is through God's grace.Forgiveness and unconditional love are given by both of us. I have no expectations of the results only the moment to moment in this time I have been given by God. I get a quickening in spirit everytime he calls me.
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